Poem: Still

How did it come to this, my love?
How did it come to this?

I’m still waiting on this bridge
Watching it burn under my feet
Still waiting for you to remember
Still waiting for you to see
Still waiting for you to apologize
Still waiting for you and me

Just call me, my love
Don’t let me hang up
Just text me, my sweet
Don’t let me ignore
Just approach me, my song
Never let me turn away
Never let me again

Hold me still.

Stand before me
With courage and fear
Look into my eyes again
Until I quiver and cry
Don’t move or leave
Just stand still.
Just say, I’m sorry.
Just say, it’s okay.
Just say, I love you
Still.

Stand strong.
Stand still.

Hold me still
Me and my gaze
Until I scream and yell at you
Until I roar and beat your chest
Until I spit and rip and fight
Until I collapse and stand again

Still
Don’t move
Don’t leave me again.
Just say, I’m sorry.
Just say, it’s okay.
Just say, I love you.
Still.

Stand strong.
Stand still.

Care for me and my heart
Care for us this time
Touch my cheek and my soul again
Touch your lips to my ear
Then whisper,
Still.

Then watch.

Watch me soften.
Watch me smile.
Watch my eyes dry
Watch them fill with love,
The love that’s behind them
Still.

Feel my body relax
Beneath your touch
Feel
My lips touch yours again
Feel
My tears dry on your cheek
Feel
My sigh slip into your mouth
Hear me say
I love you
Still

I’ve never stopped.

Stand strong.
Stand still.

Then take me off this burning bridge
Then lay me down near water,
Then join with me both heart and soul
Then take me back up to heaven
Then still
Still
Still
Still
Eyes to eyes
Lips to lips
In that moment
With me
Still

Just call me, my love
And don’t let me hang up

Hold me still.

Don’t give up on us
And neither will I.

Don’t give up on us
And neither will I

Don’t give up on us
And neither will I.

Don’t give up on us
And neither will I

Hold me still.

How did it come to this, my love?
How did it come to this?
Still I wait
Still I dream
Still I fool myself
All while the flames lick
Up my thighs
Where I feel your touch
Still
Where I see your eyes
Still
Where I wait for you
Still

Yes, still

Despite it all
I love you
Still

~ by omgrey on October 1, 2012.

3 Responses to “Poem: Still”

  1. i’m in tears, and in a very similar space as you are. Your blog has been a beacon of clarity and communion as I have been sorting out my own confusion and nightmare. Thanks so much for doing what you do.

    • Thank you so much for your comment! I’m in tears now, too. 🙂

      It’s so nice to be heard and understood. To be seen.

      I’m so sorry to hear about your nightmare, and I hope it’s some comfort that you’re not alone. It certainly is comforting to me to know I’m not.

      Peace.

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